Matthew has always talked to us about someday finding his biological mother. Gary and I have always supported him and encouraged him. We told him that we would help him anyway that we could. I guess I just never dreamed it would happen so quicky.
You would think that I would have learned by now to simply trust God and let him lead. But I must admit that I am still struggling with that one. If I were allowed to write the ending to Matthew's story I'm not so sure that I could. Perhaps I am being nieve, perhaps I am being a little over protective, perhaps a little selfish. While I was thinking of words like closure and acceptance and moving on, God was using words like relationship, new beginnings, and family.
I understand that the words that God seems to be choosing for Matthew are much better than the ones I had in mind but they are unexpected and to be honest they are a little scary. But I'll be fine (a little insecure, but fine) God and I have had differences of opinion before. Luckily, he always wins.
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I just wanted to say that everything that you have been through with Matthew gives you the right to be " a little overproctective and a little selfish"...I mean I feel that way and I am just a sister. But you have to know that you are a great mother and have set a wonderful example to all your children. You have raised Matthew with love and care and most importantly you have shown him how to love and trust in the Lord, and to lean on him always. I am very proud to be apart of this family. The verse you choose says it all. I love you and thanks for being a wonderful mom and granny!!!!
Kari
Matthew's blessed you have you guys as parents. Not only because you've raised him, supported him, and guided him all these years, but also because you have enough faith/trust to allow him to search out his biological mother. Thanks for your example.
I think I now know how my mom felt when they dropped me off at MMC. Thank you for sharing your intimate thoughts! That takes a lot of bravery.
I, too, am adopted. My parents adopted me as a baby after they already had 6 biological children. Let me tell you that I have always felt that I know the true love of God because of that. That a family could love enough to adopt me after having children already showed me the love of God. We are all his adopted children. But, when you are actually adopted by parents that have so much love to give, you can understand how wonderful a God we serve. Your example to him is nothing short of miraculous. Also, he has a biological mother that loved him enough to give him to you. What a good start to a wonderful life. You have a wonderful heart that he will always look to. You are his mother.
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