Wednesday, September 19, 2007

Follow up to Counting the Cost

So what does all this mean and what does it have to do with me?
Well, the elderly couple in the previous article are my parents. I have told the story before about how I was disowned and disfellowshiped by my parents because of my "liberal" religious views. It has been six years this month since my parents have spoken to me or my children. I feel guilty about comparing their religious zeal to that of a radical extremist, but I must admit the concept is really similar.

I suppose after six years I should be over it - in many ways I am - in many ways I'm not. I still stuggle with how I am suppose to feel about all of this.

Please understand, I think my parents ideas and action are simple, misguided and cult-like. But I do not think of them as bad people. They are not bad - They are just the opposite. If you ever got the chance to meet them you would love them too.

I have come to accept the fact that nothing in this life will ever change this situation. I had a conversation recently with one of my parent's old freinds. They were talking about how sad the situation was. I assured them that I would change it if I could. They sadly agreed that there was nothing that could be done.

I know that I will not be welcome at their funerals. Perhaps I should just have my own little service for them and move on.